The sun rose just like every other morning
I watch with admiration
With awe
Of Nature’s creation
I watch how consistent it is
I don’t like Nature, I love it
The light dances through my window
And paints my skin ever so beautifully
So warmly
It’s full of life and soul
Whereas the life and soul within me keeps receding
When the light starts fading away
And the darkness falls around me
In a heavy blanket
My heart thuds a bit faster
Craving for it to last
last for an eternity
For I know not
If I would see the daylight again
I just sit there
Penning my thoughts for that’s all
I can do
But I am being observed
As I look at those desperate eyes
Of the two people who birthed me; I
Wanted to reach
Out and touch their tear-dried cheeks.
Tell them it will all be fine.
Tell them that the needle sticking
Through my arm doesn’t ache anymore
Tell them that my parched throat
Is quenched
Tell them that I don’t mind the smell of antiseptic hanging
Around me anymore
Tell them I don’t mind gobbling up those weird pills and bitter tonics
Tell them that I feel great in
The green hospital robes
Tell them I’ll be fine
Tell them that everything will be okay
But I stopped myself. Hold back.
Look at them with promising eyes and nod
Because I know, once I leave
I don’t know where
But when I do leave the promises to turn to dust
To empty words
